My partner acts okay and says its alright even after I know I hurt him badly. What should I do?
The only thing any of us can ever do when we make mistakes is to work on ourselves whilst making amends. Assuming that you have apologised and explained what was happening with you that drove your actions, the way forwards is to continue working on yourself. So, what needs or pain drove you to hurt your partner and how can you heal and forgive yourself to avoid hurting him again? It’s also ok to open up to him and tell him what you need from him and similarly, ask him what he needs from you.
Most importantly, try to learn from the experience. We are all human and we all have past pain that can drive us to do things that hurt other people. Now, make sure that you take the time to reflect on how to build the inner validation you need to move forwards.
As you do the work, share what’s happening with you with your partner and gradually, you can turn this moment into an opportunity to keep building a deeper connection with each other.